Compulsion

I’ve got an addiction To friends that are foe
All their truths fiction
Constant pain I undergo

Trust far too easy
As easy as one, two, three
That was until you turned your back
Now, through a hardened heart I see

You started out different
Nothing like the rest
A betrayal I couldn’t prevent
And now you’ve hurt me best

Now I understand
I’ll face disappointment every day of my life
A relationship contraband
Friendship a cold, unforgiving knife

I want to be heartless
Revenge a dish best served cold
A love I can’t repress
Forgiveness uncontrolled

I keep coming back
For the pain or the pleasure, I can’t discern
A full-frontal attack
Maybe one day I’ll finally learn

I’ll continue to give
You’ll continue to take
And the wrong decisions
I’ll continue to make

I’ll beat your eardrum until it bleeds
Maybe one day I’ll find someone who can give me what I need
Eye for eye, tooth for tooth
Love is patient and kind, an uncanny truth.