My heart ached
The tears burned
The sleepless nights
when my entire being yearned
for you to comfort me
for the day I would finally be
able to sincerely say
"I'm okay."
I was under the microscope
Available for all the world to view
Susceptible to all of the pain
that broke my spirit and murdered hope
I wondered when
I would no longer pretend
when I'd reply
"I"m perfectly fine."
Fractured wings cannot fly
Walking down the street
I could feel all the eyes
and sneering lips of the passer-byes
The rain poured
when I cut the cord
that held myself together
I went out to face the weather.
It's been almost a month
but not much has changed
Seeing couples makes me sick
because deep in my heart I feel
the familiar emotions prick
as sharp as a thorn.
Some days I wish I'd never been born.
Some moments I feel strong enough to stand
because when you're at the lowest of lows
you'll find out who you really are
and that everyone else blows.
It'll take strength
And it'll take courage
to get up time after time
step by step
length by legngth.
But I'll make it
I will succeed
I won't again
make the mistake
of trusting so easily.
I'm taking each day as it passes
I am a Phoenix, rising from the ashes.