12/11/09

Counting Days: A Tale of Mishaps


Straying rays
counting days
by labelled pills
sleep walking
silent talking
lacking any thrills
alive at noon
tired too soon
wasting precious time
drowning sorrows
chasing tomorrows
with vodka and lime
chubby cheeks
18 weeks
what did i do?
flaming passion
tacky fashion
a night spent with you
missed a day
ran away
stubborn and confused
all alone
not even grown
broken and abused
lying on the floor
wishing for no more
at the end of the rope
tying a knot
she's all I've got
a newfound sense of hope

12/10/09

The Hallway

Connecting rooms of memories
with tattered curtains
and shattered mirrors
worn out carpet and dusty windowsills
sending chills up the spirit's spine
light peeks in
looking for a friend
but finds emptiness
music lines the walls
floating down the hall
a cavernous darkness
curiosity killed the cat
in order to get out
chase away the doubt
when this becomes that
old newspapers
misfit toys
grown up girls
and grown up boys
gone to face
a material world
hatred and fear begins to swirl
in the heart of light
overcoming night
green moss
the only sign of life
echoes through the stone
a never-ending hallway
a chill beneath the bone.

Musical Chairs

Tiny travelers in the night
eyes awake and glowing bright
far from fear and far from fright
flashing greens of traffic lights
silence broken, ears are ringing
due to all the prior singing
followed by short, timid mingling
new, loving feelings thoughts are bringing
intrigued by an open spirit
far too late for them to hear it
leg warmers, cupcakes, microphones
I'm glad I didn't stay at home
moving, swaying to the beat
unable to stop the flow through my feet
X's on the backs of hands
twisting, turning where I stand
living in a musical land
compelled by an amazing band
eyes are drooping, fighting off sleep
this night is one that I will keep
I'm diving off into the deep
dreaming of concerts without a peep
there cannot be me without you
and this something that remains true.

Night of Epiphany

Bright eyes in the night
turning left, turning right
wind playing with my hair
cruising down the road nowhere
hopes and dreams still swirling round
before they tumble to the ground
music pulsing through my veins
the only thing that keeps me sane
tomorrow's almost yesterday
Bright eyes in the night
my future's out of sight
choices here and choices there
now my hope's drowning in despair
do i leave or do i stay
pressure causing my dismay
when I'm there how will i know
if what's right is what i chose
will we break or will we save
tomorrow's almost in the grave
Can't stop time from closing in
Can't escape original sin
give it up and let it go
but it's tied into a bow
pull the strings, untie the knot
Tomorrow's something I forgot.

Exercise


Oreos, ice cream, cellulitic thighs
looks like it's about time to exercise
home gyms, yoga mats, exercise ball
don't you answer that sugar cookie's call
wrong scales, five pounds, the camera adds weight
your diet attitude is turning irate
microwave dinners, $20 a month
you feel like its about time to give up
sweat drops, gym shorts, fancy tennis shoes
the cheesy workout video blues
don't give up on your healthy race
feel the burn and pick up the pace!

December Rhapsody

A world of ice, a heart of stone
how it aches to be alone.
Earth is sleeping, flowers chilled
wolves are howling, surging thrills.
Skin is rosy, bones are cold
eyes of rapture, wings unfold
children laughing at a snowman's expense
they'll be melting ever since.
Timid beings hide inside
"it'll be alright," their companions lie
Attempt moving on from a love lost
about as hard as a winter's frost
Wrongfully deemed a case of charity
walking away left a winter in me.

A Dream World

Sinking in pillows
lightening flashes overhead
wind in my hair
I'm running, I'm flying
nothing or no one can stop me
i am an electrical storm
here, i am perfect
i run through sun beams
i breathe in rushing water
swirling down to purple caverns
I'm running again
they will never catch me
i am meeting a boy
pink fishnets
ripped jeans
white band t-shirt
red eye shadow
"what are you all about, kid?"
new best friends
wooden spoons
cars crash, bones crunch
i jump over mountains
"Get behind me Satan"
man-eating plants
white dress, archers
I'm the new hero
video games
mariachi bands
running again
a worn couch in front of the high school
storm clouds gathering
alligators, limousines
magical tree
a lost basketball, returned
a deceitful son
a loving mother
rainbow, candied trees
stepping stones
the ghost light

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sweet wine
extravagantly asking me to marry you
youth group outings
I can't keep my eyes open
Heavy rain
a cob-webbed basement
flirting
Halloween party
a gorgeous boy I'll never meet
a math exam
stuck in a river
a church full of dogs
celebrity looking right at me
ToonTown
a glitter tornado
desserts on a boat
adrenaline
speeding
please slow down, you're drunk
don't let your eyes shut
fight it. fight it harder
a sprinkler
watering the lawn
an intruder
a hand gun
the highway
"We have to go back"
a 2 dimensional claw
the end of the world
trying to save it with different sandwiches


WAKE UP!

WAKE UP!
WAKE UP!

Safe, again. In reality.

I Am

I AM:
a red polka dotted balloon flying as high as i can
a row boat floating away from the safe shore far too quickly
retainers on perfect, white teeth that love to smile with chatter
a scar on the knees of a girl who's met the pavement without a tear
a perfect note, matched in 3 part harmony
a love letter waiting beside your bed, hoping to sweetly surprise you
an echoing laugh, ringing through the air, contagious
perfectly curled hair, spiraling down over tanned shoulders with a hint of blonde peeking out
the hardest blanks of a crossword puzzle
the hot chocolate that tickles your insides with warmth in the winter
the breeze with the smell of rain coming, whipping your hair around
a mystery novel written by an up-and-coming writer, almost discovered
i am the fame of the innocent, good-natured musician singing in the streets with a guitar case longing for money
the one broken nail on the girly tom boy's hand
the stuffed animal you will never give away, the one that's been your loyal friend all these years
the computer geek that will one day rule the world despite the ridicule of high school
the lost phone number you finally found
the white checkers on a picnic table cloth, moving with the wind
the camera's shuttering lens, snapping photos of smiling, cross-eyed, protruding tongued children, peace signs and prom memories
your boyfriend's hoodie, the one you can smell even after it's been washed five times
the imaginary friend that will love you no matter what comes our way
the muscles keeping your eyes from closing in sleep, depriving of the dreams that are always more appealing than reality
a long twisting driveway to the small, happy cottage hiding in the woods
the anger in defeat, the grief in failure, the pride in success, the jealousy of never being anywhere but 2nd place
I am the over-priced eco-friendly shopping bag, Reduce, Reuse, Recycle
a fresh, new fashion trend, not from any year beyond 1980 or below
yesterday as it fades
the sweaty palms you rub together before your first real job interview
a waffle drowned in too much butter and syrup, making your hands and face pleasantly sweet and depressingly sticky
the gaping hole that appears in your chest when you're gone for too long
the left over cake batter in the mixing bowl, on the spatula, on the mixers
the flickering lamp on a motel desk, happy to see a real customer, offering to pay with cash versus a rip-off designer watch
the maturing of a teenage girl that knows where she wants to go and who she wants to be
the president of the national honors society
the one who still cheers on their team even when they're down by 40
Saturday morning cartoons. The animated, the computerized, the 3-D.
sunglasses resting on a freckled nose, peeling a bit from the sunburn she got at the pool
a pen that just writes good, causing inspiration
protection of the picked on, the unpopular, the poor and unredeemed
a couch. i caused too many sleepless nights and cricks in necks for my varying company
the only clean shirt left crumpled on the floor beside the empty pizza box and greasy game controllers
the winning touchdown in the tie breaking homecoming game
I am a wish granted to a child with cancer
the survivors' lap in the Relay for Life
sweet smelling cookie scented lotion, just like the ones mom used to make
he wind in the sails of a pirate ship gliding over the deep blue sea
a white zune with dirtied magenta headphones, a home to 3200 songs and counting
a child's chalk drawing of happy flowers, smiling clouds, and green almost-edible grass
checkerboard suspenders that severely clash with the neon plaid beneath them
the too-small shoes that a thrift store can never get enough of
the brightest nail polish ever seen
a person who knows how to put words on a page, say exactly what she means despite how she says it
I write, therefore I AM.

New Kid on the Block

There once was a time when I had a blogspot specifically for music, unfortunately I forgot my password and better yet, my URL. Although music will always be my favorite thing about, well, life, I love writing just about as much, hence the birth of Writer's Block. If anyone ever reads this, it will probably be a miracle. If not, then it's just a way to keep my creative juices flowing. And thus ends my pitiful introduction to this blog.

I have been deemed "artsy" by my close friends and proudly accept the adjective. I write for my school newspaper, wrongly set in the Assistant Editor slot, but I still manage to prove myself with every paper that I know what I am doing and that I am the "Master of InDesign." I intend to major in Print Media, hopefully one day doing something that I love that mixes together music, graphic art, creative writing, and possibly sports. I believe that fashion is my sixth sense. I watch What not to wear like it's going out of style. I am a follower of Jesus Christ. I could not function without the following bands: Red Jumpsuit Apparatus, Wavorly, Nickelback (mainly their older stuff), Nevertheless, Shiny Toy Guns, Secret & Whisper, Brendan Rivera, Family Force 5, Switchfoot, Brightwood, and City Sleeps. I know, that's a lot. You should see my broad list.

Currently Listening: Don't you think we owe it to ourselves? - Absentstar